//hujung minggu..

novel and short stories; mr. know all

psycholing; article, discussion at 8pm [sunday 010209], revision

sociolingu; group asgmnt-contct group members , submit 040209

soha; prepare week 4 presentation, excuse letter

h.e.l; study chapter 1-3

induction course

sat. 2.30pm-sun. 9am-4pm

sigh

eve..

again, mom is out of town. busans..
and i think tht everything is almost back to normal. hopefully.
hope hope hope

i'l be having my dinner at nz tonyte.
melepaskan tekanan yang tak perlu disimpan.

terfikir nak tgk amin and otha benl-ians maen bola. tapi mcm ada perkara laen yg perlu dilakukan.

esok,
kuiz 'history of the english language' bab 1-3, hslr 2/3/4/5, jam 12 tghari.
kesimpulan; perlulah belajar mlm ini.. sampai lebam. kenapa? sebab suka buat revision last minute. haih.




gementar.

so?

i miss 'him' !

=(

i dun care if people lie to me.
wanna kno y?
coz i dun lose a thing.

keep on lying.
be creative on making up stories or telling lies.
again, i dun gve a dem!

..why?

because, usually, ppl tht talk bulshyts bout others wil feel regret n live in a restless lyfe.
they cant stop thinking wht shud they du next. which is wheter to tell the truth or keep on lying.

plus!

i realy realy hate it when some of my classmates ask me a favour to sign their attendance! come on la people. kalau tak dpt menghadirkan diri ke kelas, buat la cara x hadir. kalau la hidup kat dunia ne semudah tu, hari2 aku skip class dan suruh je sesape tanda tangan.
btw, my bf wudnt du such thing (walaupun i'm his gf) =) and i'm proud of him!
thus, i didnt even sign fo my close fwens too. so dun be surprised if i 'accidently' rejected ur favour. hee hee..

p/s; i hope to see u tomorow
RedRose xoxo

//happy birthday to me!

na'ah.. its not my birthday actually.
monthly birthday, i guess..(ada such thing ka?) whatever..
yay! mamy dan kakshe da pulang! sow glad that they'r home, finally!


okay.. ape yg telah berlaku semalam?

morning

i woke up early but not that early. i called khairul. had my breakfast. laundry. watch tv.. on9-blog, research,ym. print sum article.

afternoon

i hv to cook. which i'm not really good at. watch tv. sidai kaen. laundry again. text text phone calls. continue reading my novel. nap.


sum wierd thing hapened..
yamie. she's acting strange. i wonder where she is. worry..

night

dinner(its fo my cousin. i was planning not to eat.kunun nak diet. pehh!then i'v ordered mc donald?) .watch alvin n the chipmunk. nap while waiting fo ma to come back. messing around with amin(what was i thinking? silly me).mom returned. get sum stuff and tht cheers me up, a bit.

now

finding a solution to sleep

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//i'm not that cool..

kalau da xde ape2 dlm percintaan, tolong lah jangan nak memburuk-buruk kan ex-gf/bf kamu. kenapa ekk?

sebab kamu berdua pernah saling mencintai, menyanyangi.pernah juga berkorban hampir segalanya utk ex kamu tuh.kena la juga ingat2 pengorbanan yang pernah kamu dpt dan yg kamu beri.suka-duka yang pernah kamu lalui.walaupun punca kamu berpisah menyakitkan, tp jgn lah burukkan bekas kekasih kamu tuh sangat. mana lah tahu kalau betul kamu ni jodoh, dgn org yang kamu kutuk itu juga la yg jadi suami/isteri kamu.

ape kes ne kamilia? kenapa tiba2 kate mende mcmtuh?

oh..sebenarnya ada mende yg berlaku membuatkan saya sedikit tidak berpuas hati. mmg benar silap sepupu ku ini. biasalah, manusia mana x pernah lari dari membuat kesilapan. dan dari kesilapan tu la baru kita bule pelajari dan meperbaikkan diri kita ni lagi.

kenapa marah sangat?

sebenarnya mmg x suka pun nak amek tahu or sibuk2 hal org. tp kali ne sbb org tuh pun darah daging saya. bukan nak kate kita pertahankan dia. tapi dgn apa yang diperhatikan, seorang perempuan ini yg digelar sebagai 'x' (iaitu ex-gf dia) telah melampau.

kepada 'x'.. (kalau yg membaca ne terasa hati, maybe kamu la org nya..)

hey 'x',
jangan lah menghina bekas teman lelaki kamu tuh melampau2. x elok mengutuk org ne.. sungguhpun kamu sekarang telah mendapat lelaki idaman kamu yang kaya-raya dan ada degree, tp x baik lah membeza-beza kan mereka.

hey 'x',
fikirlah elok2. ingat lah baek2. kamu ne patut nye kenang lah budi siket. kalau lah sedarah-sedaging saya tuh jahat, dah tentu dia mengungkit apa yang pernah kamu rasai sebelum berakhirnya kamu berdua.

hey 'x',
kerana cinta, kerana sayang, sume yang kamu nak, mesti dpt kan.. ? pernah kate alhamdulillah?

hey 'x',
sedar lah diri tuh siket..


btw, it was worth losing you.. (wah.. gila jahat kamilia) sorry to say, but its da fact!
the new girl ada pendirian. n thts what most guy want!
cheers~

p/s; girls, dun mess with guys. they can be 'wild' lyke us too.. they too hv feelings.

its time to sleep..
mom did called me. so do my bebey.
n now, i must sleep.
da dpt bekalan tdo da.. hee hee..
but its kinda hot.. x selesa la..
my cousin ask me where i wanna go tomorow. well, i dunt kno.
huarrghh.. (nguap)

nanyte mamy,bebey,chi2.
nanyte julie,siam,yamie,romeo.
selamat malam wan atok.

nanyte.. puteri nak pergi beradu ne.. (puteri lah sangat! xpe mlm ne je)

z.z.z.z.z..

//just like a star..

finally, he called me! yay!

be gud =)

//while you were far away from me..

before he went to terengganu, he asked me wht i wana do when he's not around plus ma n kakshe. so here's the list..

'eat till i gain more weight?'

'watch tv + shisha?'

'mandikan sume kucengS'

'clean up da house'

'do laundry-which is banyak sangat!'

'carwash'

'karaoke?'

'watch underworld-but i'm not sure.i was hoping to watch it with u, syg!'

'shopping?'

'buy more fish'

'get myself an iguana since mom left me sum extra cash =) '

'hang out with strangers which i dun think i shud du'

i almost forgot! i hv homeworkS! i hate it when 'they' give u a break but with homeworks. what kind of holiday is tht? n here's my homework's list..

'novel and short stories; hv to finish my reading, research on ..oh! i cant remember!'

'sciences of hadith; prepare fo week 3 presentation, excuse letter'

'psycholinguistic; do sum revision, find topic fo asgment'

'sociolingu;revision(optional, meaning if i have extra tyme)'

'history of the english language; prepare fo quiz which will be on 31st january 2009, 12pm. chapter 1-3. alhamdulillah, its an open book. i MUST not take it fo granted!'

i think, thts it! the list tht actually will go on during cny hols..+ IIUM semester break!

=) i dun really wanna smile.

i already miss my sesayangs. please du come back early and take me out at least to p.d.. i miss the salty ocean =( thus i was wrong. i cant du this alone.i need u here.. remember that u text me n said 'u want me to turn back?' n i said 'no. its okay' .. well, i dun really mean that. dear, i'm not okay =(

0117am

kerinduan

// so, i had a bad week plus goin to be a bad weekend.(hopefully NOT)
it was awful, disaster? yup!

i'm not feeling very well actually. g kelas pun mate lebam. so burok. smile? hum trying sow hard. stress with my ex-roomates. why kamilia? oh.. they thot of making a surprise-moving-out-from-c3.2. but they didnt get any cool reaction from me. i was pissed. and stil pissing off ryte now. y?
okay. they knw tht i am super duper pengecut melampau2. n leaving me alone wit my otha rumate yg x slalu ade dlm bilek, its just suck! wht i need to du is to move out too and nyelet2 la kat bilek yg ade satu compartment kosong. but the problem is.. 'sis, masa nak tukar bilik dan mahallah da tamat tempoh.' ouh! why they didnt tell me earlier.?? haduih. at least i can du sumthing bout it. haiyo! dgn segala rasmi nya, kamilia menjadi sebahagian masyarakat nomad. maryam-hafsa-maryam everyday! nora's place fo sure. alhamdulillah ade org yg maseh cocern dgn kenomadan saya. exhausted? SANGAT! dan ianya..

mengganggu emosi.

dugaan Tuhan? saket.. kali ne betol2 saket. n i have to face every inch of the pain that i deal with. i cant runaway from it. its a reality-duhh! even if i'v tried sow hard to make it a fantasy, but i cant. its just sow painful. kekdag kene panic attack. i cant breath n my tears sudenly fall. all i wana do is to curled up lyke a child. and cry-out-loud. and i need a punching bag. sorry? yup.. nak minta maaf banyak3 kali. kenape? sbb rase diri ne cam failure loser. haih. yay! kamilia ngeluh.
kesimpulan

kamilia terseliuh hati.

great news!
my love is goin out of town.
mama n kakshe pule out of negara!

and me?

duk diam diam kat bangi.and behave ngeh3. i lyke this part! (senyum seperti ada udang disebalik batu)

happy hols n happy chinese new year!

k2ar..ily much3!

i'm weak
Its just sow painful
I need him to rely on
To breath.
I need him to look after me
to make me feel alive.
Coz i kno tht it'l be hard fo me to walk alone.
I heart you, bebey..
Please dont ever leave me.
U r the sweetest thing that ever happen to my life, too..and i want it to stay tht way..we both do..

Xoxo Redrose

finally.. sume selesai.. now, focus study =)